Copyright Lance
Kinseth, Seeing In The Dark: Two Crows, 11"x14, 2012
I go down into the gaps in the world:
Across many years of returns,
I would go down into a gap alongside an obscure river.
There, I was drawn to the wide faces of sandstone cliffs.
After some passing of time, peering between fine grains,
I found myself ambling in compressed, lush forests,
Long before any of my kind had appeared in this
Earthstream.
But still, I felt at home and comforted.
You and I were present there even before we had taken
form.
We were forthcoming.
To give you a small taste
Perhaps you well allow me to try to convey some small
glints from one such return:
Gazing into those sandstones then,
My shoulders gradually stilled and became two hillocks.
And that which had likely called me there on one occasion
arrived:
My stillness was checked by a thunderous storm gathering
over this gap.
Sky began to reach down and engulf me,
And in it I found a ladder of rain and began to climb.
My body filled with songs of lightning.
In my age, such sentences sound impossible or
metaphorical
Or even grandiose and illusory,
But I am a child of this landscape.
I bow in humility and apologize for not having better
words for it.
As the storm passed, I ascended out of the gap with a
sense of completion.
The admonishments that were sung to me were received.
And yet, how to describe this comprehensive, integrated
before-of-words?
Crow appeared overhead and then spiraled in arabesques
down over the river.
I was not watching crow.
My eyes were the vista of hills and river and crow.
I was strung to crow.
The tail of wind that crow rode swept in across my tongue
into my heart.
My heart swept into my hands.
My fingers became soft black wing tips, literally.
My fingers still do this,
Even in this quantum, post-industrialized cybernetic age.
My fingers still do this despite so much having been lost
from us.
It is an obligation for at least some to act in such a
way,
To allow our fingers to lead us where our thinking seems
incapable of going.
In a very real way, it is remarkable that we have come to
presume that we can no longer
act in such a manner or that it
such actions are irrelevant.
Going down into the gaps,
Into hollows alongside rivers and even into tiny cracks
in stone and wood,
It is a reach into no time at all, into a timeless
eternal that continues to design us
And gradually leave us behind as our ancestry did to
become you and I.
Penultimate home is something elastic,
As much coming and going as arrival
And so very much more than we have allowed ourselves to
begin to imagine.
Having left home to go down into the gaps,
Only brings us more deeply homeward.
Ultimate home is a cosmic abyss in which we fly like an
arrow
Never hitting a mark and stopping, deeply lost yet
inseparable.
